Waking up, it's cold and dark. I really want to just stay under the covers and go back to sleep. But that is impossible. My body sends me into a quiet rush to gather some clothes and carefully make my way down the dark hallway with my hands on the wall for balance. I barely make it before the pain in my head caused my stomach to heave up what little was in there. During a brief respite I take my medicine that dissolves under my tongue and use the pain relieving cream and hope they work. I have a few more short moments of "fun" but eventually things settle down. That's good as I have been able to stay out of the ER for years now and I don't want to break my streak.
This is not the first time this happened, nor will it be the last. Often I am surprised by these days, but not this time. Yesterday was a day where my pain just seemed to increase from the moment I awoke. So I am not at all surprised that it has been a rough morning today. Hopefully as the day goes on I will begin to feel better.
Physical labor will be postponed for the day, but I still have lots of computer and planning work that I can complete as I feel up to it. I hope to get back to work on the mantle soon, but in the meantime I will be working on the footage I have so far. One thing I know after living with a TBI for so long, days like this are temporary and i'll be back to it soon as long as I let myself recover.
Til next time, take care all!
With all of the ways to stay in touch and share my projects with everyone I may have neglected my blog while working on my YouTube channel amongst other projects. I may have to re-evaluate what forms of communication I use and when to make sure I keep everybody updated on what is happening with FV-Escape-Hatch.Com.
In the meantime, here is a rundown of what I've been up to since the last blog post.
I am continuing work on my Boat Building project. Lots of time has been spent figuring out the design of my layout table. Soon I will have a design locked in and will begin to build it. I have my GoFundMe account fully set up so I can begin accepting donations to make the boat build happen faster.
I am working on the backyard as well. The last gopher has been removed so I have been preparing to tear up the back yard to repair the damage. While repairing we are going to make a few changes to the irrigation and layout to add a garden and a space for the workshop. To prepare I have been designing and cleaning up the backyard of debris and the plastic netting that sod is grown on.
I have also begun work on the mantle building project I had hoped to have completed by the holidays LAST year. It's coming along and I will be turning this into another episode for my channel.
That's pretty much what I have been up to with projects.
On the personal side things were busy as well. We had a couple dogs boarded with us for over a week, which while they are very sweet they are a lot of work since they're still puppies like Bodhi. He sure had a good time with them though, which was nice. And I have to admit, those pups are a lot of fun too.
We also had a Birthday dinner for my wife with some friends and family. The house was packed as we had almost 20 people invited(and still unfortunately had to leave some out) and most came. It was a great time but I do wish we had more space to entertain inside for winter gatherings. Had the weather been a little tamer we could have easily invited all the friends and family over and set tables up outside.
I think I hit the highlights, except for this one little tidbit. No more rib pain!
Until next time everyone!
On Saturday, we had planned on having Amanda's Dad help us cut down a tree. We also informed our neighbor's as the tree is right on the property line and we didn't want to damage their vehicles. They said not only would they move them , but would be available to help as well. Come Saturday morning, we have not only my father-in-law, and my neighbor but also my neighbors son and grandsons. They are awesome neighbors, and we've been so lucky to have them.
Money woes, Pain and nausea, Transportation issues, and the planning I must undertake. These are some of the mine's that block my path from recreational activities normally. With my latest fall, another mine is added.
I have been wanting to get out on the Ocean and go fishing for months now. The failed boat partnership really did a number on my morale and opportunities for recreation. But I didn't let it stop me.
Shortly after the partnership dissolved I began to reach out to the Southern California fishing community through a popular Outdoor Forum and online Magazine, Bloody Decks aka BD Outdoors. The response from the community absolutely blew me away. I began to get invites for fishing excursions.
Unfortunately, I have not been able to actually go on any of these trips yet. Weather issues came up and caused the sea's to get nasty, so we ended up not going which was for the best. Plans with family and friends have also caused me to miss a few trips, though in this case I'm ok with it as I rather like my friends and most of my family. The hardest times are when my health issues are causing me to miss trips. Perhaps the scheduling was too close to another event, and for me would be too much so I have to pass. Or I have no way of getting to the harbor because I can't drive due to being on meds. Many times I've simply passed, knowing that the odds of a pain exacerbation are high and not wanting to risk being caught in a pain-nausea-pain loop which would shorten the trip for everyone and could even send me to the ER.
Yesterday, I got an invite to go fishing out of Marina Del Rey today with a gentleman named Robert, from the Bloody Decks forum, and his son and son's friend. With all of the trips missed, the time away from the water, and my recent fall I was ecstatic that I got an invite and decided that I had to risk it. I needed to get out on the water, and away from the house. Because of the fall I had already been taking it easy and I had no set plans in the way. It looked like I might be able to but should I risk it? Damn the torpedoes, Full speed ahead!
So last night I got all my fishing gear together. I found that I actually still had a lot of tackle on my brother's boat mixed in with everyone's stuff. So I had my niece take me to Dick's Sporting Goods where I purchased some hooks, weights, and a few other things that I would need. Of course my wife and niece had already been over there earlier in the day but I hadn't known of the trip at that time. Sure would have been handy to have gone with them earlier.
I also had to purchase my new fishing license since CA license's are good for the Calendar year, not from the date you purchase it. Of course, the terminal at Dick's Sporting Goods was down so we went to the Wal-Mart in the same shopping center. I knew we should have just gone to Big 5 as it took 45 minutes for someone to come help us. We would have left after 15 minutes but by then Big 5 was close to being closed and I needed the license that night. So we waited.
Once purchased, we went home. I reorganized my fishing gear and then had to prep my truck for the drive by checking fluids, tires, etc. Our truck has our camper on it and there was no way I was taking it off just for a day drive because getting it back on is a real chore. So I also had to prep the camper for travel by stowing all gear securely, unhooking the electricity, and checking all the tie-downs. I also checked the time it would take to get there, with little traffic would be about 45 minutes. I doubled it for traffic and thought that would be fine.
I woke up before 4AM as I have things that I have to do to ensure that I can make it through the drive and the day. After prepping myself I finally got on the road at a little after 5:30AM. I got gas, some snacks, and a cheap styrofoam cooler for the fish we hope to catch.
I began my drive a little before 6AM on the 14 south until I got out of the SCV. I transitioned onto the 5 south and found traffic going between 30-50. Not ideal but at least it wasn't stop an go. I continued on, traffic staying relatively the same. I passed the 210, no slow down. I transitioned onto the 405 southbound and almost immediately it became bumper to bumper stop and go traffic.
At this point it was 6:30 and I had about an hour to get there. Problem was, my GPS was telling me that it was going to take 1 hour and 3 minutes. I would cut it close but I think a few minutes shouldn't be a big deal. Though it would take an additional 15-20 minutes after I got there til we could leave the dock.
15 minutes later and had just passed the 118. I looked at my GPS and it said 1 hour 5 minutes. There was absolutely no way I was going to make it on time. I called Robert and let him know what was going on. At the rate I was going we would be lucky to leave the dock by 8:30, an hour after the agreed upon leave time. The nature of fishing is that you can miss the morning bite during the morning tide change if you're off by 15 minutes. I was not going to do that to them so I let him know that they could go as I wasn't even sure if I'd make it in an hour. He was very understanding and if it was likely I'd be there in an hour he would have waited but we'll try again another time.
All the scramble the night before. Little sleep. Over 2 hours in the car this morning. All of which i'm paying for in pain. And I didn't even get to fish.
Damn the torpedoes, they got me.
I really want to thank Robert for his invitation and his understanding. Now let's see if my pain will let me take a nap.
Like many others that have a chronic pain issue, I tend to gloss over the rough patches with most people. It's hard to open up and let people see what it is that we go through. We focus on the good things, the successes, and the humor. All of which are good things. But sometimes, it would be beneficial to let everyone know the difficulties we face.
With that being said I'd like to share some with you now.
A few nights ago, I went to bed around the usual 10-10:30PM and it took a bit to fall asleep. Just before 2AM, I was awakened by pain and nausea. I grabbed some clothes and rushed to the bathroom with my head pounding, neck and back unimaginably stiff, and nausea racking my stomach. I immediately took my oral dissolving Anti-Nausea meds and began to focus on my deep breathing, all the while hovering over the porcelain throne. I also began to rub in a pain cream into my neck and back.
Luckily, this time I was able to avoid vomiting. About 20-30 minutes after taking the oral dissolving tablet I was able to take some Ibuprofen liquid gels and a half pill of my muscle relaxant. I continued with my deep breathing and mindfullness exercises. Finally, around 4AM, I felt like I could possibly get back to sleep and went back to bed.
Unfortunately I awoke around 6AM. I maybe had a total of 4-5 hours of non-continuous sleep. As tired as I was, there was no way I was going back to bed. So I began my day. I went out and got some coffee, nothing spectacular just Don Francisco's 100% Columbian medium blend coffee out of my Keurig with a reusable filter cup. I then went out into my garage/office/shop and began doing some easy on the body computer work on my various projects.
While coffee is pretty good at waking you up I was still quite tired after a cup or two. Caffeine is wonderful stuff. But it is also a bit of a diuretic and I heard and heeded natures call. I proceeded to exit the bathroom and walk down the hallway when it happened. I tripped. Fortunately I can say that I didn't trip over my own two feet, though I'm sure many who know me wouldn't have been surprised if I had. Instead, I tripped on a baby gate that was set up to keep the dogs (our tripawd and 2 guests) out of the hallway.
We have one permanently set up but it blocks the entire hallway. At the beginning of the hallway is my wife's office so occasionally we put up a baby gate temporarily on the other side of her office door so the dogs can go in the office with her but keep them out of the rest of the hallway. When we do that we just leave our permanent gate open.
Such was the case that morning. One might think that the permanent gate was now out of the way since it was open. Not so. Instead of landing on the ground with my outstretched arms to break my fall, I landed with the right side of my rib cage taking the full impact of my fall onto the metal gate. And it was just my luck that the gate was at just such an angle that it didn't collapse. Ouch.
Being a retired-corpsman, I evaluated my injury on my own. I determined that I had no obvious fractures or internal bleeding. I was able to breathe, though deep breaths and movement were painful. In other words, I either bruised or cracked a rib or two. There isn't much that can be done medically, so I'm dealing with it on my own. Some rest, ice, and ibuprofen are the name of the game at this point.
What was just a usual run of the mill bad night has now turned into a tough few days as I heal up.
On the bright side I wasn't carrying my coffee so I didn't burn myself on top of the rib injury.
Oh well, I hope to heal up quick and get back to my projects.